it's all happening.

Sigh.

I just want to take a second to get this out of my system:

I lost my new point and shoot camera in Watertown this weekend when I went to visit my boyfriend for new years eve. I’m really bummed that I’m out the $200, but even more upset that I lost all of my photos from Christmas and new years. There were easily 100 photos on there that I really loved. I called around to every place we went and (as I anticipated) no one turned it in.

Then today at work, A family came in and pulled the most classic retail theft move ever, and I fell for it because I was distracted showing lenses to one of our regulars. The husband ended up leaving with a $700 camera from our store, and my iPhone that was behind the counter. The camera will most likely be covered by the stores insurance, but my iPhone won’t. The worst part? The 350 photos that were on my iPhone that I’ll never get back.

I realize how obnoxious and materialistic this is, but those are two of the only nice things I’ve bought myself in a long time. I’m trying to remind myself that they’re just things and it’s just money, but for fucks sake. I’ve never had a smartphone before, and I’ve never spent more than 100 dollars on a pocket sized camera but since I use those things pretty often, I decided to upgrade. It really breaks my heart that the things that I worked hard for are now just being sold by some scumbag.

I would even be happy if someone just turned in the memory card from my camera so I could have my pictures back. I can replace the camera, but I can’t bring back my little cousins from Virgina to sit on santa’s lap again. I just can’t help being really depressed that those photos are gone forever. It kills me that there’s absolutely nothing I can do to get them back. I re-traced my steps, notified the police, reported my serial numbers stolen, but there’s still a really good chance I’ll never see them again.

I don’t know where I was going with this, I’m just really bummed.